Why Didn't I Just Buy It?

Okay, why is it the one thing you need right at this moment is always the one thing you don't have? I have been to the craft store twice in the past two weeks and I looked at a table top easel thinking to myself, "Hey, I could really use one of those". But it was not on sale and I am cheap as dirt so I decided to wait until I had a coupon or something - like if I actually found a coupon I would remember to bring it with me to the store. Wouldn't you know it today I need a table top easel and I am kicking my own ass for not just shelling out the twenty bucks when I had the chance. To make matters worse, I went looking for one at two different stores and couldn't even find anything close to what I need. I could have saved the headache and the time if I just bought it when I had the chance. Oh well, knowing me if I had bought it I wouldn't have felt like using it and I'd be complaining that I wasted that twenty bucks on something I'm not using. I know, I'm a hard nut to crack. I don't fully understand my own neuroses. All I know is it seems like you are damned if you do and damned if you don't so you might as well have fun while your being damned! I don't think the nuns who taught me about the evils of self appreciation and merriment in general would find that the least bit funny. I think the whole point of all of my religion classes was to never have any fun 'cause if you did you'd be damned, I guess I didn't learn that lesson very well. I never was a very good student. So, I am going to go paint now without an easel. The kids come home soon and once that happens it doesn't much matter what I have or don't have because they won't stop talking long enough for it to be used anyway.