Crossroads or Crosswords?

I am finding it really hard to get on here this summer, I wonder why? I truly can't figure it out other than I have had a serious bout of temporary insanity that took me a good week to shake. I would have filled everyone in on my adventures, but then you would all know too much and I would have to kill you. I'm just kidding...I think. Max is finally in summer school. I am so happy that he likes it. He is not thrilled about a whole lot of things. I figured I would have to fight with him every morning just to get him up and ready for the bus. Other than this morning, he has been up at six and we've gotten out the door by 7. Today was the exception and totally my fault since I over slept and we got up at seven. Needless to say, he missed the bus and I had to drive him all the way to Red Smith school, which is a good twenty minute drive. I figured that since I was already that far from home I might as well stop and see my parents. I went in intending to just stay a few minutes. I was lucky to get out by 1 p.m. Once my Mom starts, it's an endless stream of things that she needs help with. I am happy to do them for her and luckily today, I had the time. Just for starters she wanted a Yorkie picture put in as her face book profile picture, yeah, I know... scary that my Mom's on face book. Then she needed her cable channels fixed...again. And then she wanted me to figure out why she couldn't find one of her friends on face book. She said he had sent her an e-mail asking her to join his list. He was on something called life story or some such thing so the reason she couldn't find him is because she was looking on a completely different website. These things would have been doable in an hour or so tops, but then she came out with the dreaded crossword puzzle. She has been talking about this puzzle for weeks. She said it is the "hardest one she has ever seen". She should know because she does the "puzzle" religiously. I've been busy, so I've been able to avoid the inevitable "just take a peek at it I'm sure you have to know some of these answers", until now. I spent almost four hours looking at this stupid thing. First, I had to see if I could do it on my own, that didn't work. I started looking things up on the Internet. I have to be pretty hard up to do that. I couldn't find anything. I was minutes away from cheating and just searching for the solution and writing the answers in for her. I would be the "goddess of all crosswords". Knowing me, I wouldn't be able to pull it off because I am such a horrible liar. I finally conceded the fact that I could not help her. The really sad thing is if she had just looked in the paper the next day the answers would have been there and she could have saved herself countless hours of mind-numbing droning over something as trivial as a crossword puzzle. Although given the fact that I spent a good chunk of my day doing the exact same thing, I guess I shouldn't be her judge. I am guilty of the same crimes. Once I set my mind to something there is no stopping me until I have figured it out. I wonder if this might be why I never get anything done? I am unable to do anything without putting my full attention towards it. Who can do that when there are so many things being thrown at us day after day? It would be a miracle if we could focus all of our attention on any one thing. I am going to have to start finding little chunks of time to allot to doing part of something and be happy with any progress made and maybe eventually I will turn around and there will be something substantial there. Any effort would be an improvement. The potential to create and thrive is still there. I need to find my drive and determination again. Crossroads or crosswords they both need level headed thinking and concrete choices. Like my Mom with her "hardest one she's ever seen" crossword, I hope can keep reasoning and plugging away until my puzzle is complete, no matter how long that takes. I'm pretty sure I'll solve it...eventually.