I don't have any idea what the hell is wrong with me. Sometimes I can be such a dumb ass. Quite often, actually. I think I have fried my brain cells beyond repair. Why do I ever trust anyone? Really, truly, I should never do that. You would think you know someone forever you should be able to trust them. I've known myself for forever and I can't trust myself, so why would I trust someone who isn't, in fact, me? Quandary. Questions without answers. Questions that should never be asked. Seriously, why should I even care? 'Ya know what? I don't care. Okay, I still care, but whatever. Nothing can be done about it now, right? Right. Moving on...
I went out last night. Had a blast again. It's nice to just go out and not have to worry about losing anything as important as a child or something. I still have to worry about losing shit because I am just that stupid. I can't for the life of me figure out what happened to my ring. I don't remember taking it off and I have no idea when it went missing. But it is gone. I am usually very aware of where my jewelry is at any given time but, alas, last night even this simple task escaped me. Oh well, I guess, live and learn and then superglue your rings onto your fingers. I, like an idiot, stayed up most of the night and then this morning I packed up stuff for my entire family while listening to them argue about how they didn't want to go. No, now they do want to go but they don't want someone else to go. Oh, they don't want to go anymore and dad has to stay home with them so I can just go by myself. I can't go by myself! Why was I going to leave and go to a hotel without them? Holy crap. I tried to ignore as much as possible and by the time I was actually ready to leave they were all in the car waiting patiently. Amazing. I swear they are just trying to get me upset and when they do it's a free for all. It ends up being a complete waste of my time and energy. I know, I should have learned that lesson way before now, and I have - kind of. It's just a really hard lesson to learn and it's even harder to practice religiously. So, anyway, we left town and headed for Wautoma for our cousin's high school graduation. We checked into our hotel and did not get to the party until like three o'clock. The kids swam the entire time we were there and ended up being even crabbier afterwards. We were supposed to go over to my aunt's house too, but on the way the kids disagreed about whether or not they all wanted to go, so none of them went and they wouldn't let me go so, we all stayed in the hotel room. My kids, along with their father, can sit in front of the TV for hours at a time. That is what they are all doing as we speak. Okay, that's not fair, they are playing cards too, but only during commercials. The games take a little longer that way. I think it's about time for me to get some sleep. Looks like exhausted blogging trumps even drunk blogging on the "things not to do no matter how much you might think you want to do them" list, who knew?
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