What's in Your Head?

I read on a friend's post if you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they are meant to be there. I think they are just not trying hard enough. Push them the hell out. So much time is spent dreaming about the things that could have been. Let's try dealing with the things that are. So, life sucks and there's nothing you can do about it. Move on. If it weren't possible to repress memories and move forward most of society would be bonkers. It may not be the best situation, but what is? You need to live life by the moment. Nobody wants to think about it, but it could be over in a heartbeat. Ideally happiness is the goal, but wallowing in self pity doesn't help anybody. Improving your lot in life day by day is a noble goal and it is as much as I can handle most days. When there is so much that you are up against baby steps are going to have to be enough. Huge sweeping changes are just going to have to wait until I have time for them. Between the children's outbursts and the other outbursts I have to deal with on a daily basis I don't have time for hopes and dreams. No matter how much I whine about happiness and life being too short to not follow your heart. It's all a bunch of crap. Sometimes it's just too hard to deal. I think it will be a better use of my time to devote my energy to keeping my kids from losing any more of themselves in the massive flux of my sanity as it ebbs and flows like the tide rolling out to sea. Eventually I will be able to straighten out my life and hopefully have some time to see what's still rattling around in my head. But for now it's all filed under "future hopes and dreams - to be opened when sanity and cooler heads prevail". Piece by piece and day by day eventually I'll be okay. Wow, that really sounds like something a crazy person would say. Maybe I don't want to know what's up there after all.