Princess Envy

Why do I set myself up for failure? I would be better off just accepting a sucky life than expecting things that just aren't going to happen. I have always been a dreamer. When I was a little girl I always thought I would grown up to be a really well kept woman. I had visions of cooks, and drivers, and the all important maid. I wouldn't have to do anything except what made me happy. I would have gardens, and a mansion with a library that had a rolling ladder to the towers of books, and my own grounds with ponds and fields to enjoy (yes I have really thought this through). My children were going to be well-rounded, schooled at the finest academies, raised with horse riding lessons and piano lessons and foreign language lessons. We were going to be a very happy and obviously wealthy family. I know this was not attainable, but as a little girl, I sure thought it was. My mother had me completely convinced that this was my lot in life. She was always talking about the finer things and I will admit my childhood was quite comfortable. I never went without any necessities. We stayed at really nice hotels, shopped in really nice stores, vacationed in really nice places, but what I failed to realize was that unless you are born into money, which I was not, you really have to work your ass off to get it. I suffer from princess envy. I think I deserve things just because I am me. It never even occurred to me to work for it. I see women every day who don't work and it seems as though they have everything that I want. I don't know if they do or not but I need to stop living with the expectation of something that I am never going to achieve and start working toward a goal that is realistic. I don't need all of the fancy things, but I do need to start investing in the quality of life that I have. I know I am very lucky to have all that I do, but a girl can still dream, can't she?