It's 45 Degrees...Let's Go To Bay Beach!!!

We went to Bay Beach today. Eddie had a birthday party there. Lex had a birthday party at a friends house. I thought the invitations both said 11am so I asked Chip to bring Lex and I would take Eddie. The boys had a friend sleep over last night. I threw all of them in the car and went to Bay Beach thinking it would be a nice distraction for the boys and I could still be there in case I needed to watch Eddie. I wasn't sure how many kids would be there and if I needed to stay or not. We arrived at 11am and went to the playground to look for the party. I couldn't find any one I knew, so I looked at the invitation again. It said the party started at 1pm. So, now we are sitting at Bay Beach in the freezing cold with a little girl in a party dress and no sweater because her mother never takes the time to listen to the weather. I figured it was pointless to go home and wait until 1 for the party. I went the the gift shop and bought a little pink sweatshirt, for Eddie, not me, although I was tempted! The boys, by the way, were all in t-shirts and shorts, but they wouldn't admit they were cold, which was fine with me 'cause the sweatshirts were nineteen dollars a pop. I told the boys to go nuts on the rides. I, of course had fancy shoes on and after about ten minutes of sitting I couldn't feel my toes anymore. Eventually it was late enough to see if the party was going to be going on, so I went over to the park. They were there and I explained what had happened and she offered to take Eddie home for me so I could go get Lex from his party and thaw out my toes! Chip and the boys wanted to stay for awhile. I can't imagine why. They ended up getting Lex for me, which was nice. I went to my parents house to drop some stuff off. I don't think I have been able to go there without any kids in months. We talked for awhile. I fixed their TV. Someone keeps deleting all of their local channels and it freaks them out. Every time I said I was going to go, my mom said, "Oh no, your not leaving yet"! I think she knows I need a break. I should take full advantage of time without the kids when I have the chance, but you know me, I'm obviously a martyr and can't just relax. I had to see if the kids were okay even though I know full well that if they weren't my cell phone would be ringing non stop. I swear people are never happy. I keep saying I need some time alone and when I get it, I'm in such a hurry to get back to the chaos that is my life. Maybe I am destined to be miserable. Maybe this is as good as it is ever going to get and I just need to accept that fact and move on. I think the weather is talking for me. The next sunny day I will be so positive everyone will just want to smack me. Until then I think I will have to contemplate my lot in life and see if I truly am the root cause of my own unhappiness. Who knows? Everyone has faults, maybe mine are so faulty they are interfering with my perspective. I have been told more than once lately that I am being defensive and unreasonable. I will have to investigate this further and report back. In the meantime, I'm going to enjoy the few minutes of kid free time I have left. Never mind, time's up!